amazing...

i loved that! picking poems to fit your peeps. how cool? i thought it was awesome before i even realized i was there! my poem is perfect in so many many ways. thanks, paxgitmo. i so needed that tonight! i'm glad i came.

even though i'm tired.

i grow weary of the job hunting and killing process. i am tired of getting emails and phonecalls at my desk. of being interrupted at all hours to field all kinds of questions and requests.

i'm tired. i'm tired. i'm tired.

stretched so thin you can see right through me in spots.

i just want to do the right thing.

i hate making mistakes. i know they're necessary and a part of life. but i just don't want to deal with any consequences.

i got really emotional and mad today. i have to get a grip and keep my kool better.

calm. cool. sweatlessness.

it'll be over soon. another interview tomorrow.

i'm tired.

what if my new job is too much? i'll make mistakes. i'll have to make friends and win trust all over again.

why am i suddenly not feeling so great about it all?

because i'm tired.

i think i'll try to slip a vacation in somehow before my new job starts. if it ever does. if they ever make me an offer.

i'm tired.

what's worse. i'm growing apathetic. too tired to care. who cares?

so what?

big deal.