All I see is black

All i see is black
darkness surrounds
no light in the eye
at the end of this tunnel
despair
it will never be right
be what it might
become all i believed it could be.

i feel nothing about anything
yet i know i'm hurt
trapped
enraged
frustrated
defeated
scared
alone

why am i destined for such a life?
suffering
it's in the air we all breath
in the water we drink
waiting behind the next
dip in the road

i lie awake
and can't go to sleep
even though i'm tired
so tired of
treading life and getting nowhere

working hard
giving much
and getting nowhere

when will this end
when will i laugh again
when will i enjoy all i've been given?

counting the days until heaven
where life begins
no tears
no pain
no wondering why

singing
dancing
praising
living

at last
a peaceful home

yet all i see is
black