Be on guard. Stand true to what you believe. Be courageous. Be strong.

i read this before i got out of bed this morning. and for some reason it reminded me of this:

fear and trembling ... do everything without complaining or arguing ... in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe ...

the challenge is to humbly go about what could easily become lofty.

i often want to escape from the world and be back in a teenage bubble where everything revolves around my latest triumph or cribulation.

i don't want to feel your pain - i don't even wanna feel my own pain most the time.

crooked and depraved is still our generation. everytime i open up a paper or hear the news after several days shut out, it hits me like a grand piano dropping out of a twelve story window (a big window) and i make nearly as much noise.

so i must stick to my guns and remember that kindness does make a big difference. gratitude, guts and the ability to love no matter what. this is how i overcome.

and just like i climb up on that god-awful treadmill each day, a terrible means to an end, i must feel my own pain, and feel yours, too, and feel connected and alone, all at the same time.